December 12, 2010, 11:53 PM.

I should be asleep by now. But I am still here, sitting in front of my computer, fingers typing on my keyboard. I know, if my mom knows about this, she'll yell at me because I'm doing something silly again like not going to sleep early when I know I'd have to wake up early the next day. But that isn't new to me anymore. I'm immune, if that's what they call it.

It's been a while since I've been here, in this much more ambient lair I have. And lately, its been rare that I spit my emotions out to anyone, and if ever I do so, nobody would care. I mean, my friends are there, but they also have their own lives and own problems to deal with to even care about mine. But I appreciate the mere fact that they are right beside me when I need them most. They may not be able to do anything big to help me change the state of my life I'm in now, but they sure make the load feel lighter to me.

I don't really know what to right about right now, to be honest. I just feel like writing. Maybe that's because I'm a bit too disoriented lately. A lot's been going on in my life, and I got nobody to share it with unlike before. Well, the one who I'm expecting to stand by me at times like these is also the one who caused me to be in this situation. Yeah, its really hard but I have to stand up.

Well, I just opened a new chapter in my life, welcomed new people, and welcomed new activities in my life. I've been running for quite sometime now, pushing myself to the limit and trying to feel lighter and forget the pain. I've also been training for Java Programming, and working my mind out. One thing I've been trying to avoid for so long, one thing I didn't see myself doing. I've been going out with friends I rarely went out with before, and considering much more changes in my life. I hope I can tell myself one day, "Carry on, Tin".

Well, I've been smiling lately because of someone. But I'm not expecting. And besides, I'm not yet ready to love again. My heart hasn't fully mended itself yet. It's just been a month since I decided to let go because I saw that he wasn't happy with my anymore. But someday, I'll know what to do, and I'll be happy.

Well, I think that's just about it. I just wanna breathe it out. Charice's Pyramid playing on my iPod right now. Will be off to dreamland in a while.